Sometimes I dream about..

Sometime I dream about... well, lots of things. Lately I've been fighting my own battle of trying to "embrace the current season of my life." By battle, I literally mean that my feelings have been going back and forth so much it's been a battle. My thoughts are so happy and know that I am doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing but then every once and a while I get frustrated and feel like I'm not doing enough and that I'm not working hard enough... right now it's the later. *big sigh*

Sometimes I dream about falling in love. Lately I've been thinking a lot about love. Two of my closest friends are married, and it just feels like everyone is getting engaged, married or pregnant. (If only you could see what my news feed on Facebook looks like, it's overwhelming). I've been wondering when my time will come... wondering if every guy I encounter could be him, (this is a real annoyance, I can't help it), and really just who this guys will be. I have also realized that I don't really know how to let someone love me so i'm going to need let that happen.. just thoughts. 

Sometimes I dream about my future. What am I really going to end up doing?! Am I really going to work my ass off, move to New York, audition and do theatre PROFESSIONALLY and as my CAREER?? I need this to happen. I want it more than anything..

and yet,

sometimes I dream about having a family. I've always know that my #1 thing in life that I want is to fall in love, get married and have a family.. and up until a few years ago, I always thought it would happen young. That I would get married young and start a family young like my parents did, but as I've gotten older it has made more sense for that to happen later for me. I don't know when though.. when I think about going to NY and doing this thing, I can't think of when or how I would eventually add a husband and then kids to the mix of things.. so I don't know what's going to happen... it's all on God's timing anyway.

It's been awhile,

I'll be back soon.

xxoo