It's a problem...

So here's the thing,

I want to be in love. I daydream about being with the man God has planned for me.

I watch wedding videos, engagement videos, etc. on youtube WAY too often, it's almost embarrassing (and then I go off and show them to my friends.. it's embarrassing).

I am always pinning adorable coupley things on pinterest.. all the time. 

I day dream of who this guy is, and where he is.. what is he doing? 

what does he look like? how will I meet him? do I already know him? These are normal things I think about.. 

and ya know, there are also times that the idea of having a guy around who can be my best friend and my love and who I can be girly and cute and hug and kiss all the time, that doesn't sound so bad.. 

but then there's this..

I really don't want to be in a relationship right now.

I have wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too many things going on!

Things are changing at rapid rates in my life right now and it's hectic and I'm having to make decisions and set goals and really figure some things out.. and I need to be selfish. I can't have someone around who will sway my decisions! (I already have friends doing that!) So my problem is.. I'm always thinking about being in a relationship.. about being in love.. but in reality, I don't want that right now! It's twisted!

I'm such a nut.

God's will will have it's way regardless (and on HIS timing).

Hi-ho!

xxoo

so many things.

xxoo

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*wink*

xxoo

Thoughts..

I start my first big girl job on Monday. I know this is silly, but I'm a little worried about how I am going to adjust to the Mon-Fri, 9-6 schedule. It's going to be weird at first I think. ALSO leaving Victoria's Secret is a crazy idea for me. There are lots of things happening. 

Marissa and I have started running. We are both trying to get in shape but let me tell you this girl is having to drag me along. I love hate running. If I was good at it I'd like it but it's never been easy for me. I've been enjoying it so far but MAN I am SORE! 

More things about my future (the near future at least) are starting to fall into place. I have been making plans and making things happen... one step at a time, I'll make this dream real.

That is all (for now).

xxoo