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Happy Trails..

ok. soo the last few days have been insanity, and i've been having to face it (more or less) alone. on Monday morning my mom dropped me off at the San Jose airport. the plannn was that I was going to fly from San Jose to Dallas than jump onto a connecting flight only 45 minutes later, and fly from Dallas to Colorado Springs. I was supposed to be in Colorado Springs by about 3:45pm Monday. That did NOT happen, to say the least.

First of all, all kinds of flights were getting delayed coming in and leaving from Dallas so airplanes were getting backed up on the runways, so once we got to Dallas we sat on the runway, just sat there, not moving for close to 45 minutes. Because of this, most of the connecting flights were getting delayed as well. So once I finally got off the plane I had to RUN across the airport to make my connector. (Of course the gate I needed to get to was on the other side of the world). Ok. So I get there, find out that they were in final boarding and that they had given my seat away to someone who had a standby ticket because I wasn't there in time.

Ok. So, I freaked out momentarily. Then kinda went into frustrated/problem solving mode. So I got a boarding pass for a flight leaving at 8:55 (it was only about 4 when this happend) and a standby boarding pass for a flight leaving at 7:30. Long story short, they were BOTH cancelled.

So, now what? I was alone. In Dallas. and didn't have a flight out of there until 11:15 the next morning. Do I stay the night alone in the airport on a cot? alone? or do I try and figure out what hotel nearby I can stay at. So I start calling any and all hotels within a 5 mile radius of the airport (being that I was going to have to take a taxi there and back) and there were NO vacancies ANYWHERE! The only place I could find was 27 miles away and cost $99 to stay there.... this did NOT sound like a good plan at all but I didn't have much of a choice.

Then Thomas calls me. He had also been calling places and just happened to be in the phone with a hotel a mile away from the airport when they had a cancellation so now had 1 available room. Without hesitation he gave them his credit card number, and called me to tell me he had booked me a room. He. Saved. My. Life. When I expressed my gratitude he simply said, "Hey! I have a girl to keep safe and happy!" He's amazing.

So, the next day, I go back to the airport in preparation to fly from Dallas to Arkansas, then Arkansas to Denver. So.... long story short (again) that plan got scrapped when the first flight was delayed, and I was NOT about to get stranded in Arkansas! So I got a for sure boarding pass for a flight going straight to Colorado Springs at 3, but the weather was supposed to get the worst between 3 and 5 so this made me nervous. So I got a standby boarding pass for a flight to Denver at 12:30 and thank the LORD I got on that flight. (But really, I was praying my face off). So I finally got my booty to Denver.

Looooonnnng Story short, I finally got to Colorado Springs, almost a day later than I thought I would, and now I feel like I can take on the world (or at least any airport) on my own.... and with Thomas to find me places to stay. *sigh* Crazy, crazy time.

It's silly...

...how happy I am.

Now... I don't know if I should be blabbing to the world about how giddy I am, or how smitten I am.. but I feel like I need to say something.

There's a country boy in my life, who more or less, came out of left field (even though I've known him for 6 years), and other than an act of God, I'm not exactly sure how to explain how it came about... but i'm very happy it did.

"She's too cute to get on my last nerve,

the way she throws her little fits.

Pokin' out her lip and bitin' mine when we kiss.

There aint a fight that she can't win.

That's my baby,

and she's my kinda crazy."

-the boy

(via Brantley Gilbert)

This boy takes care of me, keeps me in check, and puts up with all my b.s.

He even surprised me this last Friday when he came with my parents to LA to move me out of my apartment, and being that I hadn't seen him in a month, I was quite happy to see him.

ok. I could go on for days, but I won't... I think you get the point.

I'm a very happy girl.

Days Go By..

I don't know if I've ever really done a blog "dedicated" to Amanda Noel, and when this picture (taken around freshman year of high school, I believe) surfaced on facebook yesterday, I figured now was the time!

I have known Amanda for as long as it's possible to know a person in their life... so whatever age it is that you start meeting other people your age and remembering who they are, that's how long i've known Amanda... soooooo 21 years roughly? I will be totally honest, as would she if you asked her, and say that I wasn't too fond of her when I was younger (when I was in elementary school I would say), couldn't tell you why, just wasn't.. but around middle school when I started going to youth group we started hanging out... and we have (more or less, it's a long story) been best friends ever since. This girl has been through EVERYTHING with me! Whether she was acutally there, or involved she definitely heard about everything and "talked" me through everything. This girl knows my WHOLE life. She knows my past, my present and my hopes and dreams for the future. She puts up with my crap and has accepted me for the crazy, out of control, free-spirited, (at times) irresponsible young lady I am.

She is my sister. I don't know where I would be today without her! I don't think I would have stayed in LA without her.. and I definitely wouldn't have made it anywhere near surviving my first year away from home without her. I love this girl to death. She's one of the strongest, smartest, most beautiful, Christian ladies I know. She keeps me in check and has a work ethic and maturity level that I aspire to achieve myself. I love her.

So, Amanda Noel, thank you for being around for... my whole life! I love you. I'm so excited for you! Finishing college and starting another insane chapter of your life, and i'm very excited to be right next to you for the whole thing! We're growing up and going to be doing all those crazy grown-up things and I'm so happy to experience all of them with you!! = ]]]

This isn't entirely current, but you get the idea. We've changed a lot since that first picture!

Random thought..

I want a white kitchen in my home one day.

I think they are pretty and they make me happy.

Happy Monday.

head in the clouds.

today i feel very distracted.

i crossed another class off my list (TH108M), so i'm done with that...

my to-do list is getting shorter and shorter:

1 more paper (getting knocked out tonight)

an audition (in a few hours)

and 3 more finals

(one is open note, one is an in-class paper, and the other is just a regular test)..

and of course, packing the apartment (which Amanda is going to help me with tomorrow).

but right now, all i can think about is summer... and being home..

and not gunna lie... i'm thinking a lot about the boy, and spending time with him.

he's currently at my little brother's baseball game, he's so great for going out to support him... and i know my mom and dad are there and i wish i was too.

i've been all giddy and shakey and weird and distracted all day... ugh

don't get me wrong, i'm very happy, just distracted and anxious.

10 days..

oh, the things to come..

how quickly things change.... this time last year is depicted in the picture on the right... and currently I look like the picture on the left. soooo weird...

10 days left in Northridge and I'm starting to think a lot about summer. I've been thinking a lot about this time last year; where I was, what I was doing, who I was with, how I was thinking.... everything. This time last year I was studying f0r finals, doing DZ stuff (as a newly initiated member), I was getting ready to pack and leave the hell hole that was my dorm and I was very much looking forward to the project that awaited me as soon as I got home, "RENT."

"RENT"/Summer 2010, changed my life. The process by which I grew over the course of the summer is hard to even contemplate. The Corinne that was in Northridge at the end of Spring 2010 semester, is no where NEAR the Corinne that came back to Northridge in the Fall 2010. I had gained new perspectives on life, "No day but today," and new ways of thinking about life and its experiences, "forget regret, or life is yours to miss"...

Over this past year, so much has happend, and so much has changed. When I came back to Northridge in the Fall I met a girl who, now, I can't imagine living without. My roommate, Maegan. She has gone through so much with me in this past year that I can't even put it into words. We have challenged and helped eachother in ways I never expected. After living in our sorority house in the Fall, we decided to get an apartment for the following semester.... I could never have imagined what changes and experiences that would bring.

Since living in the apartment, but not because of the apartment, I gained the friendship of two amazing women that I never thought I would ever be friends with, Gail and Natalie. These women have been everything to me this semester, and now I can't imagine college without them.

Now, as I'm looking forward to this summer and assessing all the things that have changed in the past year, I look forward with curiosity and excitment. No, I'm not doing a huge summer production this year (for the first time in 3 summers), but I have the boy to think about and work work work. I have no idea what this summer has in store... but I'm sure a lot will change, in me and in my life. In the Fall I will still be living with Maegan, in a new apartment, and I will be entering my final year of college at CSUN... taking on a new major and an added minor. I have no idea what's going to happen, but with all that changed since this time last year, I can't wait to find out! "There's only us, there's only this, forget regret or life is yours to miss. No other road, no other way, NO DAY BUT TODAY."

honeybee.

"If you'll be my soft and sweet, I'll be your strong and steady.

You be my glass of wine, I'll be your shot of whiskey."

-the boy. (via Blake Shelton)

I'm a very happy girl.

Green Dress Challenge (Month 2)

I have been cheating on this diet A LOT.

I've been eating Chili's wayyy too much and last night I even had Carl's JR!!!!!! sooooo distgusting.

So in an effort the jump start month #2 of this life-change, Maegan and I have decided to do the Master Cleanse for a week. The Master Cleanse is a drink that you drink twice a day and lots and lots of water in between. It's a mix of fresh squeezed lemon juice, ceyenne pepper and pure maple syrup. It keeps you full and completley flushes out your system.

So we are going to do the cleanse for a week, than i'm going back to my diet FULL FORCE!

Cross your fingers for me, this is going to be tough.

Letters. (inspired by Amanda Noel)

Dear Friday class,
Why do you even exist? It should be against the rules to have classes on Friday's.

Dear work,
I don't want to go to you this weekend.
Friday, Saturday, Sunday... I'm not looking forward to it.

Dear Finals (papers and projects),
I would love for you to write yourself, complete yourself and ace yourself.

Dear Amanda,
Thank you for letting me invade your space for the night.
The "sipping" drink was appreciated and the laying out was needed.

Dear lake,
Can I just be at you now?

Dear Boy,
Thank you for letting me call you to freak out, thank you for providing your opinion and your support to my crazy life. I like you and I can't wait to see you.

Dear body,
I would love for you to look the way I want you to with not as much effort as it actually takes.

Dear diet,
why can't you be easier and show results faster?

Dear "box" (apartment),
I don't really want to leave you, you have given me great memories, and I also don't want to have to pack you... but I must.

Dear May 21st,
Please come very very fast, i'd appreciate it.

Dear Mom!
I wish I could be there with you this Sunday...
I'll see you soon though!
You have no idea how much I love, need and appreciate you.

Dear God,
please help me to get through these next 2 weeks and help my mind to turn back to a positive place.

Distorted reflection.

today i'm having issues.

the mirror is my enemy.

i'm sitting in class... and i feel disgusting.

i feel my bare arms against my side and they feel huge...

i can feel a line creased in my belly underneath my flowy shirt and i wanna cry..

when i tilt my head downward.. i swear that i can feel a double chin..

i know this isn't what i really look like,

and i know i'm being really hard on myself, but today i'm really struggling.

i had chili's like 3 times this week and the thought of that makes me sick..

i'm not looking for pity and i'm not pining for compliments,

i'm just venting.

i know i'm not fat, and i know i've been losing weight...
but today i just don't feel good.

of course i'm still eating, and i promise i'm not doing anything unhealthy so i don't want anyone to worry...

and i'm working on getting my second wind for my diet, but today i just feel sick.

19 days and counting!

soooo much to get done in the next 19 days.

finals. moving out.

the anticipation of summer but the anxiety of having to leave the box and the girls.

i'm starting to freak out a little bit.

19 days to go...

(Part of) my bucket list..

well... since I'm up.. and what's been keeping me from falling back to sleep is all the "lists" that have been running through my head, I figured I'd post on an exciting, not so stressful list..

The Buried Life guys ask at the beginning of each of their episodes,

"What do YOU want to do before you die?"

well... lots of things!

I'm just going to go off the cuff and list some things that I KNOW I want to do before I kick the bucket.

1. (recently added) complete a full marathon

2. (inspired by my Little, Melissa) do a mud run!

3. work in an orphanage in Africa (try not to bring all the children home with me)

4. go to Mardi Gras

5. go to all 7 continents

6. live in New York

7. perform on Broadway

8. go on a backpacking trip through Europe

9. go to Graceland!!

10. go to North Carolina

(and see the beaches that look like the ones in "Dear John" and "the Last Song")

11. become a teacher (high school English, to be exact)

12. be a momma (as good as mine)

13. have a marriage as amazing as my parents

14. sing kareoke in a hole-in-the-wall bar somewhere in the south

15. fly in a plane piloted by my brother

16. fly in my grandpa's P51 mustang

17. go on a date to a drive-in movie

18. meet the President (whoever that may be when the opportunity presents itself)

19. go to a town as small as the one Carrie Underwood grew up in (population 3,400... to put that in perspective, my "small town" has a population of 150,000)!!

20. go to Stagecouch!

ok, now I'm having to think too hard to add to the list... but those are some of them for starters!

I'm noticing a lot of them have to do with traveling, I feel like I haven't been ANYWHERE!

That is all.