My Last Semester!

Here's my schedule for next and my last semester. Waiting on 2 add codes, if I get one of them I'll have one class to take over summer (which I already planned on) and if I get both then I will be done done done with college forever by May 25th! Cross your fingers! We shall see!

Dual Focus..

Why is it that I focus better with a movie or tv in the background??.. I don't know why, but its true!.. Gotta get these papers done!!

I am officially the biggest sap I know.

Last night Maegan, Amanda (my little) and I watched "He's Just Not That Into You" and "P.S. I love you." By the time we were watching "P.S. I love you" we had already had a few glasses of wine and let me tell you, the tears were flowing. I have only ever seen this movie one other time and there is a reason for it, I can't handle it! This movie breaks my heart more than any other "chick flick" I've seen.. but the end of the movie both Amanda and Maegan were asleep on the couch and I was sitting there in a puddle of my own tears.. I need to stop getting so emotionally invested in these movies! Oy... such a good movie though, I recommend it, but be prepared.

the end is near!

May 25, 2012

This morning I turned in all my paperwork for graduation and I found out I will be walking on May 25, 2012. I have such a weird mixture of emotions about graduating. On the one hand I can't believe it's already here and on the other it feels like it's been such a long time coming. College has been an insane roller coaster, a huge journey and one of the most valuable life experiences I've ever had. I can't believe it is already coming to an end, I can't believe I did it (I mean, I haven't yet, but very very soon I will have). Finishing up finals for this semester (I'm done on Wednesday) and knowing that I will be done in only one more semester scares me. I am so excited but so nervous. I'm nervous for the life change that graduating college will bring. I'm nervous in the way I was when I graduated high school, or nervous in the way that I was before I moved to LA. I know what I'm doing after, so that part doesn't scare me, but leaving LA, not living with Maegan anymore, not living "on my own" and moving back home... all these things.. scary. It's going to be a huge change, but it's also a huge accomplishment. Just getting a text from my dad saying "I'm very proud of you" when I told him my date, brings tears to my eyes. I always thought of graduating college as being just as common as people graduating high school, but now that I've been in it, I've found out that that is not the case. I'm sad to be leaving CSUN, believe it or not, I'm sad to be leaving DZ and all my amazing friends and I'm super sad to be leaving behind all the professors that have helped me greatly and cared about me, and I'm super sad about leaving the Theatre department. This next semester is going to be insane, and I'm worried it will go by faster than I want it to, but I know I can't stay in the Neverland of college life forever... I just don't know if I'm quite ready to leave. I can't believe that after 5 years I will have a Bachelors Degree in Liberal Studies with a Minor in Theatre and Creative Writing, I also never thought that would be what my degree read. I can't believe all this... and I also can't wait to be a teacher.. but I'm getting ahead of myself.. I need to focus on the now and make it to next Wednesday. Happy Finals!

Some Maybe's and Some Letters..

I was inspired today to do some "Maybe's" and some "Letters" by the beautiful Amanda Noel and Becca Mann! So here they are...

Maybe I cannot wait for next Wednesday.

Maybe I want to just lay around and watch Christmas movies all day.

Maybe I am starting to freak out a little bit about graduating.

Maybe I'm thinking that making it to graduation is going to be the death of me.

Maybe I haven't gone a day this week without crying at least once.

Maybe I have lots of writing to do in the next week.

Maybe I am wanting to diet but don't have time to focus on it.

Maybe all the engagements and beautiful relationships around me are making me feel lonely.

and...

Dear Christmas break,

please get here fast.

Dear Lord,

thank you for being there for me to talk to as I fall asleep.

Dear future,

I'm doing everything in my power to set you up well.

Dear degree,

please don't wipe me out before I get to graduation.

Dear body,

I will give you the attention you need as soon as I can.

Dear books,

I know there are many of you I want to read, I will do my best to get to you over the break.

Dear (home) bed,

thank you for providing me with much needed rest these last two weekends.

Dear Pinterest,

thank you for being there for me when I need a break, you make me happy.

almost there! Merry Christmas all!

(can you tell I can't wait for break??)

the perfect "Christmas" day

Today was such a relaxing, cozy "Christmas" day. This morning I got my hair done by my brother's girlfriend then I went over to the church to watch the end of the Christmas musicals dress rehearsal and hang out with Amanda Noel after. We went to get lunch at the mall then we went back to Amanda's house. For a good hour or so we all just sat around the kitchen and talked and laughed and laughed some more. Then we watched the "Beauty and the Beast: Enchanted Christmas," that Amanda loves and I had never seen. It sounds like a simple day, and it was, but it was so nice. The tree and mantel were all decked out and lit up and it just felt very Christmas(y). I always love spending time at Amanda's house, it always feels so homey and it is always filled with love and laughter.

Now I am home, and nice and full from the yummy dinner my parents made (chicken parmesan), now we are getting ready to play a board game and watch a Christmas movie. "Christmas time is here... happiness and cheer.. fun for all that children call, our favorite time of year!"

"it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.."

Yesterday was December 1st, which means it is officially time for:

Christmas trees

any and all Christmas decorations

(especially my Nutcrackers)

Peppermint mocha's (in red cups, of course)

Red *sparkly* nail polish

Christmas music

Christmas movies

(specifically, both "Grinch" movies, "ELF," all the clay-mation movies, etc.)

scarves, boots, hats

and hopefully, some rain!

It also means that this semester of school will officially be done in 13 days!

(and we won't talk about how I have to start an online winter class on December 22nd, but that's ok!)

Merry Christmas!!

(23 days)