*deep breath*

I don't really know how much or what I really want to say about this...

but I'm moving home from LA this week and I'm actually a little devastated. 

The biggest thing... the thing that's kept me near tears all week is the fact that I'm moving away from Maegan, and won't be living with her anymore. This girl is my sister.. my other-half, my partner-in-crime.. I'm her biggest fan... I love this girl so much. I don't think I can say much else... except I could not have been blessed with a better roommate.. and if I could... I'd probably live with her for another good 10 years or so.. *big sigh* *deep breath*... this is going to be really hard. 

7.8.12

On Sunday, my beautiful little married her Marine. 

It was beautiful beyond words. 

I was so honored to have been a part of this day, I love you both so much.

Congratulations Mr. & Mrs. Jacobson!

(Photo credit goes to my amazing friend Pierce Larick: New Revolution Photography)

another thing to add to the list for Fall...

I have talked a lot about the things I want to do in Fall

(diet, exercise, work, start substitute teaching, redo my bedroo, etc.)

but here's another thing I want to do...

I want to watch my favorite show of all time, Gilmore Girls, from start to finish (Seaon 1 to Season 7). I used to watch it almost every day and I miss it!

I'm gunna do it.

(In my free time of course).

July 3rd/Independence Day, 2012

Tuesday night was my 4th of July.

I went with Maegan to her hometown of Moorpark for their annual 3rd of July celebration!

I don't know why they do it this way, but for years and years (or so I'm told) those Moorpark(ians) take over a huge park in town and all celebrate, eat, play and watch fireworks together. It was a sweet time. I liked it.

As for July 4th... I had homework to catch up on, so it was just me, drinking some beer, doing my homework and watching "Sweet Home Alabama." It was actually a nice night.

Is is seriously the 5th of July already??

(I am 23 in 25 days!)

(Wedding time starts tomorrow!!)

in 27 days...

I turn 23!

I don't know why I feel like 23 is so much older than 22...

maybe it's because the first 2 years of my 20's (holy crap did I just say that?) went by so fast?

My 21st birthday feels like ages ago...

(Amanda and I on our Vegas trip with my parents).

when I was turning 21, I had just had one life-saving semester as a new member of Delta Zeta, I was in a run of "RENT," Amanda wasn't even engaged yet, and I hadn't even met Maegan yet!

On my 22nd birthday, I was dating Thomas and I went with him to a crazy, nice dinner in Pebble Beach...

(again, this feels like forever ago!)

since I've been 22... I have gained a sister in the form of a roommate, my best friend has gotten engaged, I have decided what I want to do with my life, I graduated college, and this summer I am in 2 weddings for 2 amazing friends (ONEISTHISWEEKEND!!!), and my time in Northridge is very quickly coming to an end!...

So with the thought of 23 quickly approaching, I think of the things ahead of me...

I am going to:

move home

watch my best friend get married

start to substitute teaching

coach a fabulous cheer squad in the fall

start working on making my dream a reality

and I plan to work out and diet so I...

(notice the #?...this will happen very soon).

strange and exciting things lay ahead of me...

this will be a good age.

Happy Tuesday!

(5 days until Amanda and John's wedding!!)

Summer Loves and Lows

Lows...

Being in summer school.

Not having enough time (or money) to do it all.

Not being able to be in two places at once (I had to miss my best friends bridal shower).

Not having a job (and not having enough time to get one).

Disappointing people I love... and myself.
(I started with the lows because it's always good to end on a positive note.)

Loves...

Being tan.

Finally having long hair.

Flip-flop tan lines.

Sleeping in.

Lots of music.

Going on trips! (Palm Springs, Home, San Clemente).

Seeing family.

Long nights and long talks with good friends.

first bachelorette weekend (ever)!

 in about an hour I will be heading to Palm Springs for the weekend with these 2 ladies (plus 3 more) for my little Amanda's bachelorette weekend! I am way too excited! 

These girls are my world. These last few years wouldn't have happened without them and I cannot wait to be wearing another matching outfit (oh, recruitment) with my beautiful roommate as we stand behind this amazing woman on her wedding day. 

Yeah for vacations! = ]

Happy Weekend!

dance.

Tonight after class, my sorority sister and I are going to go to an amazing space; it's an empty room in the gym on campus... a room that is usually used for spin classes, yoga classes, kick-boxing, etc... but tonight it will be used for dance. It's an empty room with a wood floor, a wall of mirrors, and a bar... 

This sister of mine is a brilliant ballerina and we have been talking about getting together and just 

dancing, moving, being.

We are going to play and hopefully come up with some choreography to "You Found Me" by the Fray... I cannot wait. I want need to move my body. My soul misses needs it. Needless to say, we are going to try and make this a regular thing and I could not be happier.  

("You Found Me" by the Fray)

a few random thoughts.

Today is a new day (like every other "today").

You know you're getting ready to be a cheer coach when you run around through out your day trying to think up 8 counts in your head. (I am way too excited for football season). 

When your default "wardrobe" is yoga pants and some sort of Greek life t-shirt... it may be time for an update. 

(If I want to be cozy... skinny jeans, and this on top would be better than what I wear now!)

I am constantly thinking about how as soon as I move home in the fall I will be working out (at my wonderful home gym) and having cheer practice Monday-Thursday and that by Christmas I will have the body I want.

I can't wait to get back to working (as much as possible) at VS!

My parents' 25th wedding anniversary is coming up in a few days and when I asked them if it felt like 25 years, my mom said "no" and my dad said... "If you're doing it right you don't think about that stuff, so no." Such a smart man. 

This weekend I'm going to Palm Springs with 5 other girls for (the first) Amanda's bachelorette weekend! On Saturday we are going to a water park and I am so excited! I love water parks. 

I enjoy getting a friendly smile from a stranger when I walk down a hallway at school, I think everyone should be kind to passers-by, a smile can brighten someones day.

Pinterest  is really getting me excited about making some real changes to my bedroom once I move home!

I am very excited to be dancing and playing (in an empty dance room!!!) with one of my sorority sisters tonight!

Happy Thursday!

Today.

Today is a new day.

A fresh start, another chance.

Time to make things happen.

No day but to day.

Happy Wednesday!

(Andy Grammer's "You Should Know Better")

diet attempt # (idk) 2.. (maybe 3)?

remember this? or this? or this?

last spring I was determined to lose some weight, and I did... for a bit.

and I also, as a New Years resolution, said again, that I would get more exercise

and lose weight (and keep it off)... well, let's just say I'm happy there is still a little more than 6 months left in 2012. It is officially time to do this.

So, here's how this is going to happen...

I have given myself a strict diet 'plan.'

Here it is:

- no carbs after 11am

- fruits, veggies, lean meats (fish/chicken) only

- limited, to no, dairy

- can only drink coffee and water

- no eating after 9:30pm (bedtime by 12). 

ok, that's it.. and I am going to start off by challenging myself to do this between now and my first wedding of the summer (July 8th), and I know that's not a huge chunk of time to start off with, but I need to start somewhere. I hope to keep this as general diet guidelines for my life from now on.

I have enlisted the help of my best friend to keep me on track with this.. thank goodness for her.

as far as working out... I'm struggling to get my body moving... and until I move home in August (and can go back to my home gym Mon-Thur), I'm not really sure what I'm going to do until then... I'll keep you posted... 

I have really been struggling with this, so this is going to be a challenge... here we go...

Weekend Happy List!

I was home again this weekend for more festivities... here's a happy list, and some pictures from Casey's 21st birthday party!

1. getting to be home for the brothers' birthday! 

2. getting to celebrate Casey finally being 21!

3. getting to see lots of good friends!

4. getting to spend father's day with my father and my family.

5. getting to be in a loud house filled with people I love and make me laugh like no other.

 (me and the brothers!)

 (Casey and I toward the end of the night...)

 (at the end of the night Casey mumbled, "this couch looks good" and plopped down... don't worry, we didn't leave him there.)

 (me with my mom and my good friend from high school, Maddie!)

 (me with Maddie and some of my lovely VS co-workers!)

 (me and Devan, and old family friend.)

(in each other's lives since he was shorter than me... he's not going anywhere!)

Hope you all had a great weekend and Father's day!

a link up, a happy list, & a song.

Linking up with the bestie for a Thursday Happy List!

1. watching/discussing Peter Pan in my afternoon class.

2. driving home after class.

3. the beautiful weather we've been having.

4. today being both of my little brother's birthday's.

5. getting to be home for Father's day.

6. getting to spend time with both of my little's today.

7. celebrating a milestone (21st) birthday this weekend.

8. new flip flops.

9. tan legs.

10. listening to crooner's like this guy...

a Tuesday happy list & a promise.

(my little lettuce growing town)

today I had both of my classes and after class I am heading on an adventure. 

here's a happy list for the day...

1. going to Pismo Beach with my Little, Amanda, tonight.

2. going home tomorrow (for 4 days)!

3. having some mellow time between classes with Mae.

4. knowing i'm going to get to spend some time in the beautiful Monterey in the next few days.

5. getting a phone call from my manager at Victoria's Secret in Monterey asking me when I will be coming back! (it feels good to be a valued employee).

6. getting to be home for tiny brother's (or the not so tiny Cameron's) 8th grade graduation.

 (the beautiful Monterey)

and here's my promise. I've come to realize lately that Kim Kardashian and I have a similar body type (lots of woman curves) but she is still able to have toned arms and a flat stomach...

so... with her body type as an inspiration I promise to give myself the body I've always wanted (diet and getting my butt moving) as soon as possible so that I can frolic around in a bathing suit and love my body (because bathing suits aren't exactly my friend right now). I promise.

That is all.

Happy Tuesday. 

sounds like a plan.

what happened?

I graduated. College! What?!

(I have way too much going through my head about all this right now... I'll go into more detail later)

This is a really really REALLY weird feeling... but I'm proud of myself.