Mila

"I've heard it said that 

people come into our lives 

for a reason,

bringing something we must learn, 

and we are led to those who help us most to grow

if we let them, and we help them in return...

now I don't know if I believe that's true, 

but I know I'm who I am today because I knew you...

it well may be

that we will never meet again, 

in this lifetime,

so let me say before we part, 

so much of me

is made of what I learned from you.

You'll be with me, like a hand print on my heart.

And now whatever way our stories end, 

I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend."

- "For Good," Wicked

I'm missing this girl a whole lot today. Things have been crazy, a roller coaster, a ride I wish I wasn't on, and it's almost been a month.. I'll post more soon, I have thoughts to share and stories to tell.. but for now, I wanted to share this.

xxoo 

Dear Lord...

I talk to God multiple times a day... I recently discovered that keeping an open dialogue with the big man upstairs is the best way to go. Usually when I talk to God, throughout the day, it tends to be about me, or things going on in my life... but lately, there's been so much going on in this world, that it's almost been overwhelming thinking about all the things I should be talking to Him about. This world has a lot of hurt and devastation happening right now... death, sickness and natural disasters are everywhere. 

Tonight, God, I want to ask you to bring peace, comfort and strength to everyone who have been effected by the tornado in Oklahoma. I want to ask that you keep a hand on the first responder's that have been out there since it happened, and that you hug those that are hurting. I want to ask again that you bring peace, closure and clarity to the Sobiech family, who lost Zach yesterday. 

I have people that are close to me in my life that are sick, or hurting, or need some extra love... (I don't want to put their personal information on my blog, that's not my place), but You know who they are. Please, bless them with what they need.

I have had an overwhelming feeling lately to be constantly thanking God for all of the blessings in my life. Sometimes I get upset when I feel like I'm not doing enough, or not making enough money, or that things aren't happening fast enough for me. I have to remind myself that my cup is over flowing with the blessings I have in my life. I know that God has a very specific plan for me, He's revealed it to me. I know what I'm supposed to be doing... He has been preparing my heart, I can feel it. I also know that God is tricky, and when He asks you to be patient, BOY are you going to be challenged to be patient. I just need to rely on my faith and the love I know God has for me. He is a powerful God, that I fear. I know good things are coming soon, and when they do, all the waiting will be proven worth it, and I will be ready. 

In Jesus' name. = ]

xxoo

Today I made myself a website.

I've been thinking and debating about making myself a website for a while now...

Thinking, do I have enough of a reason to make one?

do I have enough stuff to put on a website?

should I wait til I have more "legit" work to list on it?

Then Marissa told me what one of her friends she's worked with had told her,

"If I can't Google you, you don't matter." 

I WANT TO MATTER!

Now, I'm still figuring out how to make it so this site pops up when you Google my name (anyone know how that works??), but it's in the works.

Either way, I decided I wanted to make myself an official website with the credentials I have thus far and will change said information as things change! So for now, here is my website! 

(It will be ever changing to match my life). Let me know what you think!

http://www.misscorinneelizabeth.com/

xxoo

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*wink*

xxoo

Thoughts..

I start my first big girl job on Monday. I know this is silly, but I'm a little worried about how I am going to adjust to the Mon-Fri, 9-6 schedule. It's going to be weird at first I think. ALSO leaving Victoria's Secret is a crazy idea for me. There are lots of things happening. 

Marissa and I have started running. We are both trying to get in shape but let me tell you this girl is having to drag me along. I love hate running. If I was good at it I'd like it but it's never been easy for me. I've been enjoying it so far but MAN I am SORE! 

More things about my future (the near future at least) are starting to fall into place. I have been making plans and making things happen... one step at a time, I'll make this dream real.

That is all (for now).

xxoo

wish.

ok. the first half of this video is just adorable, but the second half... man, the second half is something I pray God has planned for me. 

xxoo

Sometimes I dream about..

Sometime I dream about... well, lots of things. Lately I've been fighting my own battle of trying to "embrace the current season of my life." By battle, I literally mean that my feelings have been going back and forth so much it's been a battle. My thoughts are so happy and know that I am doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing but then every once and a while I get frustrated and feel like I'm not doing enough and that I'm not working hard enough... right now it's the later. *big sigh*

Sometimes I dream about falling in love. Lately I've been thinking a lot about love. Two of my closest friends are married, and it just feels like everyone is getting engaged, married or pregnant. (If only you could see what my news feed on Facebook looks like, it's overwhelming). I've been wondering when my time will come... wondering if every guy I encounter could be him, (this is a real annoyance, I can't help it), and really just who this guys will be. I have also realized that I don't really know how to let someone love me so i'm going to need let that happen.. just thoughts. 

Sometimes I dream about my future. What am I really going to end up doing?! Am I really going to work my ass off, move to New York, audition and do theatre PROFESSIONALLY and as my CAREER?? I need this to happen. I want it more than anything..

and yet,

sometimes I dream about having a family. I've always know that my #1 thing in life that I want is to fall in love, get married and have a family.. and up until a few years ago, I always thought it would happen young. That I would get married young and start a family young like my parents did, but as I've gotten older it has made more sense for that to happen later for me. I don't know when though.. when I think about going to NY and doing this thing, I can't think of when or how I would eventually add a husband and then kids to the mix of things.. so I don't know what's going to happen... it's all on God's timing anyway.

It's been awhile,

I'll be back soon.

xxoo

"look at you reaching for the stars.." -stephen moorer

Recently blogging has been a thing that happens rarely, when I can find time and when I'm not trying to catch up on rest... but it's all for good reason. I have been working everyday, promotions are great, attending a two night benefit concert for a sweet friend (more on that later) and doing a show every Thursday-Sunday night.. it's called SPAMALOT and let me tell you, you want to see it! 

This show has been a blessed experience. I have been able to work with some of the most talented, genuine people I have every encountered and I feel so very lucky to be a part of this cast. There have been articles, commercials and talk around the towns of this show and I have to say, if you haven't seen you, you want to. We have all worked so hard and it shows in the product. I can't wait to work on my next project..... Legally Blonde, here I come.. ;)

Camila's Cure!

It's been some time since I found out that my beautiful friend Camila was diagnosed with acute myloid leukemia. For a while, I couldn't really wrap my mind around it... I mean, she's 22 and she's perfect... until I was able to see her in the hospital, visit with her, and later spend more time with her once she was home for a bit. This lady has been a dear dear friend of mine for about 4 years now and I couldn't imagine life without her. I met her doing theater here in Monterey and we became very close through the experiences (she's taught me well). 

My prayers have been going out to her daily and now my mom has been holding donor drives and recruiting as many people as possible to be her possible bone marrow donor! 

Please pray for her healing and that we find her a match. She has kept her spirits and hopes high and we are all doing the same! 

Go to  Be The Match! (that's her direct link) to sign up and hopefully be her match! Her donor needs to be between the ages of 18-44 and a bi-racial mix of Mexican and Caucasian. 

 (Below: Camila and I on a recent trip to Tahoe! My family had planned a trip while she had coincidentally planned a trip with friends at the same time, for the same side of the lake, and we were staying in cabins 2 blocks from each other! Let's just say it was a great trip!)

 (Below: Camila and I in a production of RENT that we did at MPC! She played Mimi and if you know the show you know how amazing that is! That summer changed my life!)

 (Below: Camila, Casey and I after a show!)

 (Below: Camila, me and our other great friend Tara, at a New Year's Eve celebration at a local theatre!)

 (Below: Camila, Tara and I on our weekend trip to San Francisco for Camila's 21st birthday! That was a good time, let me tell you!)

This girl is my partner in crime! I love her so much and she has taught me so much about living! I pray for her health and strength every day. I want this girl back to being healthy so she can get back to her life as it should  be... on stage, singing and dancing and reeking havoc with me whenever we can find the chance! 

I LOVE YOU CAMILA!

Team De La Llata!!

xxoo

October 25th

Happy Birthday Maegan!!

Today is this lady's birthday! She is all the way over in Thailand right now so technically, for her, it was her birthday yesterday. But for me it's her day today, miss you lady! Wish I could celebrate with you!

this.

this is another gem i stumbled upon online. 

if you haven't seen it, take some time and do it.. it made my heart smile. 

=]

a few lists.

I'm greatful for...

-fall. (football, scarfs, boots, rain).

-the fact that i am able to go to work at a job that i know and love with people that i love. 

-being able to choreograph and teach 13 wonderful little girls as their cheer coach.

-the wonderful, amazing, beautiful, generous friends and people i have in my life (no matter how far away we live from each other). 

-the excitement i have inside my heart to be starting work on a new musical project, October 1st. 

-my good friend Camila, this sweet lady spent 45 days in the hospital figuring out a problem with some leukemia, and yesterday she was released from the hospital! 

-the awareness i gained today of what we, as wealthy Americans and Christians, can be doing to help 'the poorest of the poor' gain healing and jobs in other countries (and got some really cute stuff in the process). 

I'm bumming because...

-i don't live with my sister anymore (i know it's been 2 months... but i'm still bitter about it).

-i don't have my own space. I know how lucky i am to be living rent-free.. but i'm anxious (and trying to be patient while waiting) for that time when i can journey off on my own, hopefully to San Francisco ;) , living my life. 

-i feel like i am no longer surrounded by the strong, close friends i was surrounded by at school. i mean, shoot, maegan and i lived together and Keifer was just 3 doors down.. and i had all my Greek system friends, and theatre people! i was truly surrounded, and it was fabulous... and i don't feel like i have that here. 

I'm praying for...

-peace. lately i've been struggling with this. i've been having some mood swing issues and i've been pretty irritable and i don't like it at all. i can tell when i'm doing it and i don't like it. 

-guidance. i need God to show me my next step and show me what he is doing with me in my 'waiting.' 

-healing and acceptance. i have not been doing well with accepting all of the changes that have been happening in my life (not living with Maegan, therefore living at home, Amanda getting married and moving.. Camila getting sick)... 

-my husband. i have no idea who this man is... i don't know if i know him, or not.. i have no idea when he will come into my life or what he will even look life.. but i know that God has been preparing him for me and me for him, our whole lives.. i pray for the time that he will come into my life and change it forever. i am extremely exciting for this. 

thought upon thoughts.

keep peace..

xxoo

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Lately I've been feeling a little like this...

I miss living with my sister.

I miss having my own space.

I miss my best friend.

I want to make money.

I want to travel.

I want to do theatre.

I want to get my credentials.

I want to move to San Francisco with Maegan.

 (this lovely, Russie, is moving up to the city today! I want to go with her.)

I've had the pleasure of working with Russie for the past few years and I've loved our time together at work... and outside of work :) I am going to miss her so. 

Because I've been feeling so funky I decided to do a short "happy list" to brighten things up...

My girls. Being a cheer coach has been great. I love these little girls.

My  job. I get to go to work, spend time with people I love and sell I product I'm obsessed with, I'm lucky.

Theatre. I am beyond excited to be starting work on another show! It's been far too long since I've been on stage. I can't wait to dance again!

It's starting to feel like fall and I am sooo looking forward to this season.

annnd... Football!! as silly as it sounds I have been watching a ton of football and it makes me so happy. 

are you having a good weekend lovelies?

tell me about it.

xxoo

I can't wait to fall in love.

This is stunning.

Do yourself a favor and watch that link..

Fair warning, you will cry. 

xxoo

love is all you need.

Thoughts..

Sometimes I like to think my soul looks a little like this.
When I take naps, no matter what time it is, I change back into my pj's. 

I'm a whiskey and beer drinking kinda gal.

One day, I want to marry my best friend.

I want my job to require me to wear a rehearsal skirt and character shoes everyday to the "office."

Without music.... or theatre..... or dance.... I don't know who I'd be.

Michael Buble. Andy Grammer. Jason Aldean. (3 men that can always make my day better).

 I can't watch Titanic with anyone other than Maegan.
If I could have 4 tattoos I would.
I watch a lot of TLC.

I'm younger in my head than I am in real-life. 

I want to adventure, to see things, to experience things, to learn things. 

letters.

Dear Maegan, 

Thank you for coming to see me this weekend. I needed that.

Dear weekend,

I'm really happy I was able to have you off from work.

Dear San Francisco,

You are fantastic. It was so great to show you to Maegan for the first time... living in (or around) your city is a definite goal for the near future. 

Dear Camila,

I loved that I was able to visit you this weekend. You are beautiful and strong and I am praying every day for fast healing and recovery of your body! (Can't wait for us to be able to get back to some shenanigans). 

Dear toe,

I know I hurt you really bad at work... but I would really like you to heal so I can put you back in a shoe and start running again. 

Dear competition choreography,

You are proving yourself to be a tad more difficult than I thought you would be... ok, who am I kidding.. I knew this was going to be a challenge! (but I'm enjoying trying to figure it all out).

Dear apartment (Box 2.0),

Boy do I miss you... 

and the space (my own space) that you gave me... I need that back.

That is all... for now.

XXOO

something magical.

As much as "Titanic" is considered a super chick-flick, it has also become one of the most classic love stories of our generation. I love this movie; Maegan and I went and saw it in 3D when it was re-released and it was a life-changing experience. This is seriously a brilliant film. James Cameron, Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet are are all timeless. 

Another thing in my life that has grown to really inspire my heart is dance. Dance has been a huge part of my life and because of that... I love the show "So You Think You Can Dance," that show has brought me to tears and made my heart smile so hard over the routines that have been created on this show.  

I stumbled across this piece and it blew me away.

It is a piece where the love story from the "Titanic" is danced to the song by the Righteous Brothers, "Unchained Melody." 

The things that happen in this piece are something magical. The passion that pours out in the movement and through the music is unreal. The emotions that are personified in this piece are like something out of a perfect dream. This is way too brilliant; Travis Wall (the choreographer) is an insanely talented man. 

Do yourself a favor and watch this!

XXOO

8.18.12

On Saturday, August 18th, 2012 

my beautiful best friend Amanda Mann became Mrs. Amanda Massingale when she married her best friend James Massingale. I was lucky enough to be a bridesmaid, stand behind her and make a speech at the reception... it was a very special day. On Wednesday the newlyweds will be driving across country to their new home together in North Carolina and I am crazy sad. This is going to set us on a new journey as grown-up best friends... my best friend has a husband! That is so crazy!! Here are some pictures from this incredible day...

 The first kiss. 

 After the ceremony. 

 Cutting the cake.

 The bridesmaids; (from left to right) me, Candace, Cassie, Rebecca, Sarah and Rachel. 

The bride and I at the reception!

XXOO

*deep breath*

I don't really know how much or what I really want to say about this...

but I'm moving home from LA this week and I'm actually a little devastated. 

The biggest thing... the thing that's kept me near tears all week is the fact that I'm moving away from Maegan, and won't be living with her anymore. This girl is my sister.. my other-half, my partner-in-crime.. I'm her biggest fan... I love this girl so much. I don't think I can say much else... except I could not have been blessed with a better roommate.. and if I could... I'd probably live with her for another good 10 years or so.. *big sigh* *deep breath*... this is going to be really hard. 

7.8.12

On Sunday, my beautiful little married her Marine. 

It was beautiful beyond words. 

I was so honored to have been a part of this day, I love you both so much.

Congratulations Mr. & Mrs. Jacobson!

(Photo credit goes to my amazing friend Pierce Larick: New Revolution Photography)