Dear Lord...

I talk to God multiple times a day... I recently discovered that keeping an open dialogue with the big man upstairs is the best way to go. Usually when I talk to God, throughout the day, it tends to be about me, or things going on in my life... but lately, there's been so much going on in this world, that it's almost been overwhelming thinking about all the things I should be talking to Him about. This world has a lot of hurt and devastation happening right now... death, sickness and natural disasters are everywhere. 

Tonight, God, I want to ask you to bring peace, comfort and strength to everyone who have been effected by the tornado in Oklahoma. I want to ask that you keep a hand on the first responder's that have been out there since it happened, and that you hug those that are hurting. I want to ask again that you bring peace, closure and clarity to the Sobiech family, who lost Zach yesterday. 

I have people that are close to me in my life that are sick, or hurting, or need some extra love... (I don't want to put their personal information on my blog, that's not my place), but You know who they are. Please, bless them with what they need.

I have had an overwhelming feeling lately to be constantly thanking God for all of the blessings in my life. Sometimes I get upset when I feel like I'm not doing enough, or not making enough money, or that things aren't happening fast enough for me. I have to remind myself that my cup is over flowing with the blessings I have in my life. I know that God has a very specific plan for me, He's revealed it to me. I know what I'm supposed to be doing... He has been preparing my heart, I can feel it. I also know that God is tricky, and when He asks you to be patient, BOY are you going to be challenged to be patient. I just need to rely on my faith and the love I know God has for me. He is a powerful God, that I fear. I know good things are coming soon, and when they do, all the waiting will be proven worth it, and I will be ready. 

In Jesus' name. = ]

xxoo

Today I made myself a website.

I've been thinking and debating about making myself a website for a while now...

Thinking, do I have enough of a reason to make one?

do I have enough stuff to put on a website?

should I wait til I have more "legit" work to list on it?

Then Marissa told me what one of her friends she's worked with had told her,

"If I can't Google you, you don't matter." 

I WANT TO MATTER!

Now, I'm still figuring out how to make it so this site pops up when you Google my name (anyone know how that works??), but it's in the works.

Either way, I decided I wanted to make myself an official website with the credentials I have thus far and will change said information as things change! So for now, here is my website! 

(It will be ever changing to match my life). Let me know what you think!

http://www.misscorinneelizabeth.com/

xxoo

Thoughts..

I start my first big girl job on Monday. I know this is silly, but I'm a little worried about how I am going to adjust to the Mon-Fri, 9-6 schedule. It's going to be weird at first I think. ALSO leaving Victoria's Secret is a crazy idea for me. There are lots of things happening. 

Marissa and I have started running. We are both trying to get in shape but let me tell you this girl is having to drag me along. I love hate running. If I was good at it I'd like it but it's never been easy for me. I've been enjoying it so far but MAN I am SORE! 

More things about my future (the near future at least) are starting to fall into place. I have been making plans and making things happen... one step at a time, I'll make this dream real.

That is all (for now).

xxoo

Sometimes I dream about..

Sometime I dream about... well, lots of things. Lately I've been fighting my own battle of trying to "embrace the current season of my life." By battle, I literally mean that my feelings have been going back and forth so much it's been a battle. My thoughts are so happy and know that I am doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing but then every once and a while I get frustrated and feel like I'm not doing enough and that I'm not working hard enough... right now it's the later. *big sigh*

Sometimes I dream about falling in love. Lately I've been thinking a lot about love. Two of my closest friends are married, and it just feels like everyone is getting engaged, married or pregnant. (If only you could see what my news feed on Facebook looks like, it's overwhelming). I've been wondering when my time will come... wondering if every guy I encounter could be him, (this is a real annoyance, I can't help it), and really just who this guys will be. I have also realized that I don't really know how to let someone love me so i'm going to need let that happen.. just thoughts. 

Sometimes I dream about my future. What am I really going to end up doing?! Am I really going to work my ass off, move to New York, audition and do theatre PROFESSIONALLY and as my CAREER?? I need this to happen. I want it more than anything..

and yet,

sometimes I dream about having a family. I've always know that my #1 thing in life that I want is to fall in love, get married and have a family.. and up until a few years ago, I always thought it would happen young. That I would get married young and start a family young like my parents did, but as I've gotten older it has made more sense for that to happen later for me. I don't know when though.. when I think about going to NY and doing this thing, I can't think of when or how I would eventually add a husband and then kids to the mix of things.. so I don't know what's going to happen... it's all on God's timing anyway.

It's been awhile,

I'll be back soon.

xxoo

oh hey, it's Christmas time!

With how crazy I've been working on non-related Christmas projects, I kinda forget that Christmas is in 15 days! Crazy talk... so in the spirit of me trying to get in the spirit... here ya go! = ]

Merry Christmas. 

xxoo

Maybe..

Maybe I just started work on "Legally Blonde"!

Maybe I am crazy excited about the role i'll be playing. I'm Serena! (Watch this video, she's the cheerleader with sunglasses on her head.. she's the second one that sings!)

Maybe this is the first time I've worked on 2 full blown productions at the same time.. "Spamalot" runs til December 23rd! We have 12 more shows! (Thank goodness! I am no where near ready to be done with this show!)

Maybe I am so happy with everything that's been happening with Pac Rep and my theatre career. 

Maybe I have a lot of decisions to be making soon.

Maybe I just want to focus on the holidays and these shows and think about these decisions after "Legally Blonde" closes. 

Maybe, regardless of what's been happening at work it doesn't really feel like Christmas is in 20 days. 

Maybe I've been trying harder to talk to Amanda (Jacobson), Amanda (Massingale), and Maegan more... usually when I am this busy it's hard for me to keep in touch with people.

Maybe I'm overjoyed and feel so blessed to be a part of these projects and to have a job that I really love,

and

Maybe it was nice to have a day off of work (where I wasn't sick) and could sleep in and get a lot of cleaning and laundry done. 

Maybe it's time to drink some tea and get ready for rehearsal!... = ]

xxoo

"look at you reaching for the stars.." -stephen moorer

Recently blogging has been a thing that happens rarely, when I can find time and when I'm not trying to catch up on rest... but it's all for good reason. I have been working everyday, promotions are great, attending a two night benefit concert for a sweet friend (more on that later) and doing a show every Thursday-Sunday night.. it's called SPAMALOT and let me tell you, you want to see it! 

This show has been a blessed experience. I have been able to work with some of the most talented, genuine people I have every encountered and I feel so very lucky to be a part of this cast. There have been articles, commercials and talk around the towns of this show and I have to say, if you haven't seen you, you want to. We have all worked so hard and it shows in the product. I can't wait to work on my next project..... Legally Blonde, here I come.. ;)

project happiness!

(one of my wine purchases today from Trader Joe's.. and yes, there is a big yellow smiley fact on the front of the bottle).

Today has been a very happy day.

I'm sitting here with my glass of wine, watching Monday night football (GO PACKERS!), catching up on some blogging and reflecting on my day.

This morning I had a good day at work, it was slow, but good things happened!

After work I went over to the bank where I was able to set up a nice little (working on making it bigger) savings account and was approved for my first full-blown credit card!

Following my trip to the bank, I stopped by Trader Joe's, which is quite possibly my favorite grocery store ever, and picked up some wine, brie and crackers.. can you say yum??

On the way home I was able to talk to my precious friend Keifer who I miss dearly..

and found out once I was home that I passed the CBEST (the test you have to pass to start substitute teaching)!!! Yeahhh me!!

I'm happy.

Today has been a good day to start off this week.

If you have time, check out this lady's blog...

She is absolutely beautiful, has such a sunny spirit and truly inspires me.

Happy Monday!!

(pray for peace).

xxoo

a few lists.

I'm greatful for...

-fall. (football, scarfs, boots, rain).

-the fact that i am able to go to work at a job that i know and love with people that i love. 

-being able to choreograph and teach 13 wonderful little girls as their cheer coach.

-the wonderful, amazing, beautiful, generous friends and people i have in my life (no matter how far away we live from each other). 

-the excitement i have inside my heart to be starting work on a new musical project, October 1st. 

-my good friend Camila, this sweet lady spent 45 days in the hospital figuring out a problem with some leukemia, and yesterday she was released from the hospital! 

-the awareness i gained today of what we, as wealthy Americans and Christians, can be doing to help 'the poorest of the poor' gain healing and jobs in other countries (and got some really cute stuff in the process). 

I'm bumming because...

-i don't live with my sister anymore (i know it's been 2 months... but i'm still bitter about it).

-i don't have my own space. I know how lucky i am to be living rent-free.. but i'm anxious (and trying to be patient while waiting) for that time when i can journey off on my own, hopefully to San Francisco ;) , living my life. 

-i feel like i am no longer surrounded by the strong, close friends i was surrounded by at school. i mean, shoot, maegan and i lived together and Keifer was just 3 doors down.. and i had all my Greek system friends, and theatre people! i was truly surrounded, and it was fabulous... and i don't feel like i have that here. 

I'm praying for...

-peace. lately i've been struggling with this. i've been having some mood swing issues and i've been pretty irritable and i don't like it at all. i can tell when i'm doing it and i don't like it. 

-guidance. i need God to show me my next step and show me what he is doing with me in my 'waiting.' 

-healing and acceptance. i have not been doing well with accepting all of the changes that have been happening in my life (not living with Maegan, therefore living at home, Amanda getting married and moving.. Camila getting sick)... 

-my husband. i have no idea who this man is... i don't know if i know him, or not.. i have no idea when he will come into my life or what he will even look life.. but i know that God has been preparing him for me and me for him, our whole lives.. i pray for the time that he will come into my life and change it forever. i am extremely exciting for this. 

thought upon thoughts.

keep peace..

xxoo

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Lately I've been feeling a little like this...

I miss living with my sister.

I miss having my own space.

I miss my best friend.

I want to make money.

I want to travel.

I want to do theatre.

I want to get my credentials.

I want to move to San Francisco with Maegan.

 (this lovely, Russie, is moving up to the city today! I want to go with her.)

I've had the pleasure of working with Russie for the past few years and I've loved our time together at work... and outside of work :) I am going to miss her so. 

Because I've been feeling so funky I decided to do a short "happy list" to brighten things up...

My girls. Being a cheer coach has been great. I love these little girls.

My  job. I get to go to work, spend time with people I love and sell I product I'm obsessed with, I'm lucky.

Theatre. I am beyond excited to be starting work on another show! It's been far too long since I've been on stage. I can't wait to dance again!

It's starting to feel like fall and I am sooo looking forward to this season.

annnd... Football!! as silly as it sounds I have been watching a ton of football and it makes me so happy. 

are you having a good weekend lovelies?

tell me about it.

xxoo

Thoughts..

Sometimes I like to think my soul looks a little like this.
When I take naps, no matter what time it is, I change back into my pj's. 

I'm a whiskey and beer drinking kinda gal.

One day, I want to marry my best friend.

I want my job to require me to wear a rehearsal skirt and character shoes everyday to the "office."

Without music.... or theatre..... or dance.... I don't know who I'd be.

Michael Buble. Andy Grammer. Jason Aldean. (3 men that can always make my day better).

 I can't watch Titanic with anyone other than Maegan.
If I could have 4 tattoos I would.
I watch a lot of TLC.

I'm younger in my head than I am in real-life. 

I want to adventure, to see things, to experience things, to learn things. 

a few pinterest things.

letters.

Dear Maegan, 

Thank you for coming to see me this weekend. I needed that.

Dear weekend,

I'm really happy I was able to have you off from work.

Dear San Francisco,

You are fantastic. It was so great to show you to Maegan for the first time... living in (or around) your city is a definite goal for the near future. 

Dear Camila,

I loved that I was able to visit you this weekend. You are beautiful and strong and I am praying every day for fast healing and recovery of your body! (Can't wait for us to be able to get back to some shenanigans). 

Dear toe,

I know I hurt you really bad at work... but I would really like you to heal so I can put you back in a shoe and start running again. 

Dear competition choreography,

You are proving yourself to be a tad more difficult than I thought you would be... ok, who am I kidding.. I knew this was going to be a challenge! (but I'm enjoying trying to figure it all out).

Dear apartment (Box 2.0),

Boy do I miss you... 

and the space (my own space) that you gave me... I need that back.

That is all... for now.

XXOO

Today..

I'm 23!

I feel a little weird about it, but I'm excited!

It's going to be a great year. 

*deep breath*

I don't really know how much or what I really want to say about this...

but I'm moving home from LA this week and I'm actually a little devastated. 

The biggest thing... the thing that's kept me near tears all week is the fact that I'm moving away from Maegan, and won't be living with her anymore. This girl is my sister.. my other-half, my partner-in-crime.. I'm her biggest fan... I love this girl so much. I don't think I can say much else... except I could not have been blessed with a better roommate.. and if I could... I'd probably live with her for another good 10 years or so.. *big sigh* *deep breath*... this is going to be really hard. 

boys boys boys..

I've made a recent discovery with my taste in music... I favor the boys! 

I don't know what it is, but something about a man.. with a voice, melts my heart!

The following men, to name a few, are the men that I've recently been showing some extra attention to.. = ]

Andy Grammer

current song obsession? Fine By Me

Elvis

(my first love... in music).

 Jason Mraz

current song obsession? I wont give up.

 Michael Buble

current song obsession? Hold On

Happy Wednesday!

Click on the links and enjoy!

in 27 days...

I turn 23!

I don't know why I feel like 23 is so much older than 22...

maybe it's because the first 2 years of my 20's (holy crap did I just say that?) went by so fast?

My 21st birthday feels like ages ago...

(Amanda and I on our Vegas trip with my parents).

when I was turning 21, I had just had one life-saving semester as a new member of Delta Zeta, I was in a run of "RENT," Amanda wasn't even engaged yet, and I hadn't even met Maegan yet!

On my 22nd birthday, I was dating Thomas and I went with him to a crazy, nice dinner in Pebble Beach...

(again, this feels like forever ago!)

since I've been 22... I have gained a sister in the form of a roommate, my best friend has gotten engaged, I have decided what I want to do with my life, I graduated college, and this summer I am in 2 weddings for 2 amazing friends (ONEISTHISWEEKEND!!!), and my time in Northridge is very quickly coming to an end!...

So with the thought of 23 quickly approaching, I think of the things ahead of me...

I am going to:

move home

watch my best friend get married

start to substitute teaching

coach a fabulous cheer squad in the fall

start working on making my dream a reality

and I plan to work out and diet so I...

(notice the #?...this will happen very soon).

strange and exciting things lay ahead of me...

this will be a good age.

Happy Tuesday!

(5 days until Amanda and John's wedding!!)

where I am in my life right now.

i'm sick of this shit.

(excuse my french).

whether it seems like it or not, 

I feel like my life is in shambles. 

I don't know how to handle money,

I spend what I don't have and don't know how to save.

I'm really really really struggling, and it has to stop.

 I need to spend money like I'm broke (because I am very broke), and save money (every penny) like I'm unemployed (since I am). I need to repay the debts I owe and get it together because I am SICK of this.

I feel like I am out of control.

and I HATE my body and my diet. I hate how I feel in my body and I hate the way it looks. I hate that I don't have a job and I don't have money and I don't seem to have any self control, which I'm sure is stemming from the fact that I feel so out of control. I need to grow up. Now, today. Not tomorrow. Now.

I'm sick of this shit.

(Sorry about the negative, down-on-myself attitude, but this needed to get out... and this is how it feels.)

diet attempt # (idk) 2.. (maybe 3)?

remember this? or this? or this?

last spring I was determined to lose some weight, and I did... for a bit.

and I also, as a New Years resolution, said again, that I would get more exercise

and lose weight (and keep it off)... well, let's just say I'm happy there is still a little more than 6 months left in 2012. It is officially time to do this.

So, here's how this is going to happen...

I have given myself a strict diet 'plan.'

Here it is:

- no carbs after 11am

- fruits, veggies, lean meats (fish/chicken) only

- limited, to no, dairy

- can only drink coffee and water

- no eating after 9:30pm (bedtime by 12). 

ok, that's it.. and I am going to start off by challenging myself to do this between now and my first wedding of the summer (July 8th), and I know that's not a huge chunk of time to start off with, but I need to start somewhere. I hope to keep this as general diet guidelines for my life from now on.

I have enlisted the help of my best friend to keep me on track with this.. thank goodness for her.

as far as working out... I'm struggling to get my body moving... and until I move home in August (and can go back to my home gym Mon-Thur), I'm not really sure what I'm going to do until then... I'll keep you posted... 

I have really been struggling with this, so this is going to be a challenge... here we go...