Gotta love Metaphors!

Tori and Dean are a reality tv couple that I shamelessly follow on Oxygen. Tori Spelling was the actress from 90210 and Dean McDermott is her husband who is a tv actor. They have a reality show call "Tori and Dean: Home Sweet Hollywood" that was about their family that I LOVE and now they have a new show called "Tori and Dean: sTORIbook Weddings." Long story short, I really like them.

Now. Tori is a hilarious lady. She is very eccentric, she tends to worry A LOT, she double (or triple) books herself and spreads herself super thin (no reference to her weight), she has all kinds of silly irrational fears, can be super sensitive and can be, well... a pain in the ass! But in spite of all of this, Dean loves her to pieces, thinks she's super hot, an amazing mom/wife and the greatest thing since sliced bread. Dean is also super masculine, and loves his toys (in his case, motorcycles).
Because of this, I have began to refer to the relationship between Thomas and I by saying "He's the Dean to my Tori." Because, well.... I can see the similarities!

While talking to Thomas tonight on the phone, I attempted to explain this reference to him because of course he has NO idea what the relationship between Tori and Dean is like in the slightest (let alone who they are). So he came up with his own reference to our relationship by responding "so.. it's like you being the Yamaha to my track!" Which doesn't mean too much to me, but i'm pretty sure we are saying the same thing in our own ways.

I love it!

a "mellow" Friday night.

Tonight after I got off of my 1-5 shift at Victoria's Secret I made my way over to a good friend of the families house to babysit for the night! I have known this couple since they were just married, and i've known their kids since they were still in their momma's belly! They are now 9 and 7 and I have been babysitting them for years.

When I arrived I was told we would be having mac & cheese for dinner, which I'm totally fine with, and I was served water in a glass that made me so happy! In recent years I have fallen in love with the idea of using old jars as glasses, so when I saw we would be drinking our water out of these jars, I was very happy!


After dinner I painted my nails this pretty purple, with the supervision of Boston (the 9 year-old).

While my hands were drying Boston asked if she could add some detail to my already painted toes, so I said, sure why not.. she she added "zebra" stripes to my toes.

Finished product!

While all of this was going on we watched "High School Musical 3"! I was very excited about this decision.. although we didn't get to finish it, the dvd was a little scratched.

And just now, mid blog, (i took a break), I got a massage from Lucas (the 7 year-old)! He offered to demonstrate (for FREE) his mad massaging skills! I told him that he should do this professionally in a spa and he said when he was older he'll "give it a shot." Too cute.

I'll probably be here pretty late (i'll probably crash on the couch before their parents get back), then in the morning at around 7am i'm heading to the lake with the boy and his family for the weekend. (a much needed relaxing time after a verrry long week). = ]

The Orange and Black!

On Tuesday night, after we both got off work, Thomas and I (along with his friend Ross and his girlfriend Luca) drove up to San Fransisco to see our lovely Giants play the Washington Nationals.

We sat in bleacher seats, which I've done a time or two before. The tickets for those seats are fairly inexpensive and you still get a great view of the game! Granted, it was freezing, but it was still a very good time!

And of course Thomas and I had to share some delicous, and very strong, AT&T ball park garlic fries!

It was a very fun, but very late night! We didn't get back into Salinas until around 1:30am and I had to work the next morning at 7am in Monterey, and Thomas had to go in around 5:30am in Salinas. Let's just say we were very tired the next day.

Goes along with growing up

Right now I feel a little bit like this picture. Like i'm standing there watching my life in front of me and it's in a little bit of a blur. (Or at least that's how it looks inside my head).

Most of what's going on in my life makes a lot of sense.. I'm home for the summer, working two jobs, hanging out with the boy and friends in my free time, etc. What is a blur is the war that is constantly being fought inside my head in regards to growing up, fighting (and working) towards my independence and battling with the fact that based on my income level and that I still have a year left of school... being completley independent isn't exactly an option.

My whole life I've been a very stubborn girl. One who wants to play by all her own rules, do whatever she wants whenever she wants, and if someone tells me to do something that I don't want to do.. chances are, if I can get away with it, I wont do it. Now i'm not saying that this is a good thing at all, it is actually something that I very much need to work on, and as I get older, compromise is proving itself to be something that I need to work on more and more.

And here's the other issue.. my free spririt. The free spirit inside me that wants to just roll with the punches, live in the moment and have a very No Day But Today attitude, has kinda been getting my in trouble in terms of the responsibility that I need to be recognizing as I'm growing into an adult.

This last semester I kind of screwed up a little in 2 major ways, with school and with parking/car issues. About a week after the add/drop period had ended was also about the exact time that I decided I was going to be changing my major in the fall. It was a little bit of a process figuring out what exactly I was going to change it to but it ended up working out for me to now be a Liberal Studies major with a minor in both Theatre and Creative Writing. Anyway, being that this was the new plan for school in the fall, I completley checked out in all of my classes I was enrolled in for the semester because I now knew that, with the exception of my GPA, I didn't need these classes to graduate. Long story short, I got awful grades and have decided to take it upon myself to pay for my schooling now because I don't think it's fair for them to be paying for it, based on how I did this last semester... The other issue, was with parking/car stuff. Now when I first moved into my apartment I was given the option to pay for another parking spot for, I think it was, $20 extra bucks a month.. or something like that, and I didn't want to take the time (or pay the money) to do it, so I just figured I would park on the street and it wouldn't be a big deal. Let me tell you, now I am wiiiishhhhing that I would have gotten that second parking spot because now, for various reasons that I don't really wish to explaing I owe my parents money for mayyybe 10 or so parking tickets....

Long story short, I am wanting to be a completley independent woman who doesn't have to rely on her parents, but instead I am going to have to be spending my summer paying them back, and figuring out how to pay for school... this is probably one of the first times in my life that I wish I was more grown up....

Another random thought..

While driving around in Spreckles the other day with Gail and Nat, we stumbled upon this house! Now you see, Spreckles has lots of adorable little houses similar to this one, but for whatever reason, this one caught my eye. I would love one day to have a house similar to this one. One with just enough rooms for everyone in my family, with a white kitchen,
a family room, and maybe and office or a game room. More so than those physical accommodations, I want it to be filled with a loving husband, beautiful children, a puppy (or two), the joy and love of God, and lots of extended family and friends that are always around and welcome to fill our home and lives with happiness. One day I will have these things, but until then, I like to just daydream about the time that I will.

Country Music is SO Smart!

"Baby why you wanna cry? You really oughta know that I just have to walk away sometimes. We're gonna do what lovers do, we're gonna have a fight or two, but I aint ever changin my mind! Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you? And I wouldn't dream of going nowhere! Silly woman, come here, let me hold you. Have I told you lately? I love you like crazy, girl. Wouldn't miss a single day, I'd probably just fade away, without you I'd lose my mind. Before you ever came along, I was livin life all wrong, smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine..."

When I'm sitting there crying and being a huge pain in the ass.. these lyrics are his words in a song. = ]

Summer.... so far!

(my room...)
(my boarding passes... i was only supposed to have 4)

(Thomas and I at the lake... after flying from off the tube 22 times)

Moved home (very quickly).

Went to the lake.

Unpacked and re-packed to go to CO.

Spent the night alone in Dallas.

Had a blast in CO, once I finally got there.

Lots of time with the boy.

Got a surprise visit from Gail and Nat back here in Monterey.

Worked on getting my room (and my life) under control.

Got both jobs squared away.

and.. Started working.

It's been good so far...
but for some reason I've been super tired!

Thank goodness it's summer and I can catch up on some rest!